But I am human. I am one of the reasons why Christ had to die on the cross. And He knows I am not perfect. Sanctification is a process, not an endpoint. So I will accept the fact that I will have hard times. I will look for more idols and work my way through what God shows me. I will find a new hairstyle, live my life without those support groups, find a different hobby, be more careful with exertion, remember that my body is broken and frail right now. I will forgive myself for my faults and go make dinner. I will cry, but I will wipe those tears away and sweep the floor. I will go walk the dogs and be happy that I can. I will defrost some chicken and be thankful that I have a stove to cook on. I will sit in the sun and heal. I will keep reading my Bible, keep looking at that Savior who is beautiful enough to replace anything else that I might think that I want.
And tomorrow, I will do it all again.